Apa strength kita yg kita rasa dan Ok dan boleh enhance? Apa pada diri kita yg kita rasa mcm nak develop sbb kiter mmg teruk? Seperti hampir semua org kat dunia ni, kita akan rasa kita ni mcm tak de apa strength, area to develop byk la. tapi cuba kita renung lelama, ada tu sebenarnyer. Bukan nak byk pun kan, cuma satu.
Benda ni saya kena buat dgn team member dan utk diri sendiri. kena submit ker boss. ekekekek. sampai ker hari ni sebenarnyer I dont really know what to submit because i've submitted mine in January. yeah, for 2007. The thing is that, I dont really feel it and I dont like to do things that I myself dont have passion for it. Hantar just for the sake of fulfilling boss requirement. Yeah, true, I must but without the deeper feeling, it wont be so close to my heart. I dont like that. I want it to be meaningful, so that I can share with people.
Yesterday I've encountered one quite annoying situation. My boss said my senior team members are too eager to go ahead. This is something from the e mail I received; which for me OK la, explain but I didn't really agree.
"The individual concerned was perhaps too enthusiastic (copied your words, Mrs ABC) and in the process failed to excercise logic, standard company practice and even maturity. What's worse was that he did not refer to those who are already well-versed in the process and was not patient enough to wait for instructions."
I know that she was covering our reviewer and good intention all bla bla bla but not fair to "indirectly blame my subordinate". I also got something from them la saying that "may be some words from TL" aku la tu. Actually I was at the verge of giving my words pulak but then think of it, pointless. It will only worsen the situation. I spoke to my subordinate, he said that it was originated from their interview session; may be my subordinate interprete it wrongly but to "meddle with the reviewer's territory", hello not my subordinate OK. They as bosses (my boss and most of us in this office's boss); therefore they should use their maturity in handling this. They are above 35 and my subordinate is only 25. come on, Were you that mature at that time? I bet not. If they brought up this issue again, I'm going to tell them the truth on how what it is. Hurt or not, please take the truth. I know that they were pressured but it was so not fair to put it on someone else (like a scapegoat) if you are unhappy - I learnt this from my team mate. This is the reason why company hired someone "with that age". The maturity.
Eh, mcm venting session lak ni. May be I am like that at certain time, therefore one of the area that I would like to develop is my anger management. Yeah .... to be like my boss Kate, wise and stable at any time. I admire this lady for the charisma.
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